KATARINA JAZBEC

The Four Kids

“Antiphospholipid syndrome occurs when your immune system mistakenly attacks some of the normal proteins in your blood. Antiphospholipid syndrome can cause blood clots to form within your arteries or veins. It can also cause pregnancy complications, such as miscarriage and stillbirth. There’s no cure for antiphospholipid syndrome, but medications can be effective in reducing your risk of blood clots.”

— Mayo Clinic

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I met Ana and her family in 2011 when she was pregnant the fourth time. Doctors discovered that she had lost her third child in 25th week of pregnancy due to the antiphosholipid syndrome*. This is the age when children, although born way too early, have survived and lived normally without any impairment. Nonetheless, Ana’s births of first two children was almost a miracle. Many pregnant women suffer recurrent spontaneous abortions without realising they have the syndrome. The family was afraid of another miscarriage although doctors carefully monitored Ana’s fourth pregnancy.

We were strangers in the beginning of the week that we spent together. In the end it felt like I was part of the family. 

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“I’ve always had these feelings because of the Antiphospholipid syndrome. I feel so insecure that I should record my doctor with a dictaphone and listen to her comforting words. For some moments I feel great, calm … but then a tiniest bit of worry flashes through my mind and all the fear is back again.

[As a pregnant woman] you should have faith and trust but that’s easy to say … They can be so quickly torn down.”

“The doctor asked once: “What would you like to have? A girl or a boy?” Erazem [her son] replied: “I only wish that he or she will be born alive.”

— Ana 

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